same days forever

Originally written November 2018. Nothing about it is really novel. I’m grateful. Not in that everyday thanksgiving applause for the soothing appreciables around me. It’s a cryptic thanks that I can barely hold onto because I have to face ugly authenticity to keep it in my grasp. I’ve justified actions in my life. I’ve leaned […]

diving

i’ve spent the last several years distracting myself. maybe eight years or so. with work. i love to work to avoid what’s underneath. it’s an easy way to admire yourself and have others admire my work ethic, when really i’m avoiding a mass weight of life under the surface. it has also been the ultimate […]

(edit)“what you do speaks so loudly that I cannot hear what you say.”

i brought my blue pillow in from the car. i put my car key back on the key ring with the rest of the keys. i washed my hair for the first time since before taco dinner with you. i put the blue-rimmed plate in the cabinet and the gray jacket in the closet. i’ve […]