weak boundaries

Building boundaries only works if they’re maintained. I learned some great things before I stopped seeing my therapist in the middle of 2018. That’s when I wanted to start guiding my own course. Not purposefully, of course. But I vividly remember feeling the awkward tension in my chest as I painted a rosier picture of […]

same days forever

Originally written November 2018. Nothing about it is really novel. I’m grateful. Not in that everyday thanksgiving applause for the soothing appreciables around me. It’s a cryptic thanks that I can barely hold onto because I have to face ugly authenticity to keep it in my grasp. I’ve justified actions in my life. I’ve leaned […]

diving

i’ve spent the last several years distracting myself. maybe eight years or so. with work. i love to work to avoid what’s underneath. it’s an easy way to admire yourself and have others admire my work ethic, when really i’m avoiding a mass weight of life under the surface. it has also been the ultimate […]

fortress ’round my heart

“[Your eyes so full of wonder] I have crossed the horizon to find you [Your heart, an innocent warrior] I know your name [There’s a task for you] They have stolen the heart from inside you [My dearest one] But this does not define you [And your deep thoughts] This is not who you are. […]