same days forever

Originally written November 2018. Nothing about it is really novel. I’m grateful. Not in that everyday thanksgiving applause for the soothing appreciables around me. It’s a cryptic thanks that I can barely hold onto because I have to face ugly authenticity to keep it in my grasp. I’ve justified actions in my life. I’ve leaned […]

fortress ’round my heart

“[Your eyes so full of wonder] I have crossed the horizon to find you [Your heart, an innocent warrior] I know your name [There’s a task for you] They have stolen the heart from inside you [My dearest one] But this does not define you [And your deep thoughts] This is not who you are. […]

losing friends

i was looking back in my e-mail for an old logo, and i found pictures of cole. i had searched for them for months on my phone and computer files when he passed away in 2008, and i couldn’t find them. i beat myself up for so long thinking i had deleted them. i nearly […]

today is the greatest

everyone should have a blog post with a smashing pumpkin title. today may not really be the greatest. i sat at work for eleven hours yesterday, forced myself to talk to my best friends instead of hiding like i normally do when i’m down, i wrote a lot, and i slept for twelve and a half hours. […]