11 years
i’ve had this blog for 11 years. this is published post 199; true post 234. i told myself along the way i’d stay raw and keep all my garbage up for the world to see, but even today i moved... Continue reading →
not only, but also
the existential crisis i was kind of vague about in previous posts was regarding my work. i’m so dramatic. it’s amazing what a few weeks of perspective can achieve. even in these several days, i can look back and see... Continue reading →
good muddy
i’ve been writing a lot lately. mercury is in retrograde, but that isn’t why. i’m determined to get all of my thoughts out here instead of keeping them so far down inside. for so many years, this blog was a... Continue reading →
works, works, works
Check out the album below for some of some of my favorite paintings. I am working on more now! You can click on the thumbnails for larger images. I look at these, and I wish I capture more photos of... Continue reading →
purge
packing up my house has been easier than i thought it’d be. i have donated and thrown away countless dozens of piles and bags. i’m amazed i cleared nine large garbage bags of clothes and still have three closets and... Continue reading →
diving
i’ve spent the last several years distracting myself. maybe eight years or so. with work. i love to work to avoid what’s underneath. it’s an easy way to admire yourself and have others admire my work ethic, when really i’m... Continue reading →
fortress ’round my heart
“[Your eyes so full of wonder] I have crossed the horizon to find you [Your heart, an innocent warrior] I know your name [There’s a task for you] They have stolen the heart from inside you [My dearest one] But... Continue reading →
my mentality on world mental health day
i ran over henry’s brother my last semester of college. i was on the way to my marketing internship to finish my bachelor’s degree, and i heard a loud pop. my heart sank to my guts. i saw my kitten,... Continue reading →
i’ll bite
or write, rather. i’ve been seeing this thing i like where people are posting very stream of consciousness style and it took me back to a time i was reading a lot of faulkner and i am trying it. although... Continue reading →
My Recliner
You act all HGTV and say things to yourself like, “No, we will absolutely never have an ugly, eyesore of a recliner in this home.” But then your husband buys you one as a push present after the baby. He... Continue reading →
i need rules.
it’s easy to be really involved with a creative idea in the beginning. ultimately a road block appears where the project is avoided. it just isn’t fun anymore or it’s too complicated/time-consuming to complete at the moment. the most disappointing... Continue reading →
nursery full of bows
i was scared vayda would be a boy even after several confirmations she would be all girl. that may be why i started creating a gender neutral nursery. but just like everything else i planned for the baby during my... Continue reading →